sheda_kun

I forgot Japan is 1 hour earlier than Malaysia (specifically Sabah)

But I still 'run' at 5.25 pm just to buy SUSHI (because damn I was hungry I didn't have my lunch and you know...sushi+kouhaku is the best)
which took me 45 min back and forth

consequence: I was late 5 min...didn't get to see the opening which I really want to watch since 'uploaders' usually didn't include...

ooooohhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~
I need to curse something/someone because of this so SHIT YOU LONG TRAILER DRIVER WHO DROVE ON RIGHT LANE WHILE YOU'RE SOOOO LONG NO USE EVEN IF YOU'RE FAST....YOU LEFT OTHER CARS WITH NO CHOICE RATHER THAN JUST FOLLOW NEXT/BEHIND YOU BECAUSE OK...YOU CANNOT BLAME THE LEFT LINE CAR TO BE SLOW AS IT'S FOR SLOW ONE BTW. DAMMMNNNN SHIIITTTT....YOU JUST LOOK,SMILE AND INCREASE YOUR SPEED WHEN I TRIED VERY HARD TO CUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!



huhhhh.....glad the Disney special was soooo kawaiiiiiii and Mao chan is beautifulllllllllll....can feel the chemistry between her and arashi....not like last year Matsushita Nao


and currently watching the boring enka singers....let's have a sushi break :)

What actually I'm doing right now

While people of my age already pursue their dreams
having their ideal career
or travel all around the world
or lead a happy life with their love one

But me....still here
stuck in the middle of nowhere
which road to follow
too many considerations
too many feelings to take care of


In the end, I'm still waiting
waiting for I don't know...opportunities?luck?

There're times I feel like give up
but trust me, if you already started something long time ago
it's hard to not continue the habit
because that will only make you...nothing.
so I always continue in believing in the power of 'never give up'
because one day...I'm sure there will be some kind of accomplishment
God will never be so mean to us

But please...
for time like this, I don't want anyone to get into my way
if possible...I can only ask for this
and you watching over me from aside is more than enough
all I want is the support from my surrounding


I hope one day
the time for me to achieve what I want will come

For now....I will continue doing my best and never give up

And I want to thank Arashi especially for always be there with me
your songs and words are more than enough to cheer me up
make me wanting to always work harder ^^/

Previously, I mentioned about my missing folder

now, it's not just a folder....it's the whole external hardisk

I kind of suspected this to happen long time ago because there's always been a problem with the hardisk

but I keep being positive about it and burned as much as i can into DVD

but there's no word of 'empty hardisk' in Arashian's dictionary...I can transfer as many as I want today and the next day, it'll become full as nothing happened yesterday ok...i'm exaggerating 

my hardisk is 320gb with more than half of the content is arashi's....i actually planned to buy a new hardisk next month to make it special for Arashi only but........=.=

i still put hope...until the very last moment of my hardisk...i sent it to the IT technician yesterday evening and buy some empty DVD as i wait for the hardisk to be repaired....but what i got was just a very fatal report....."your hardisk can't be repaired anymore, can't be recovered, it's not even can be read....nothing can be done because the component inside the body itself is burnt maybe because you watched movie for a very loooong period and didn't put it on rest"
I was like....the hell....i didn't open my hardisk like...several weeks....how come???

oooooohhhhhh....I can't even give the right reaction...should I be angry?sad?
the chinese guy (technician) said that he can help me to get a new one but I must bring the resit for my hardisk first....this is another thing.it's been a year since I purchased it...please don't expect me to remember where the hell did i put the purchasing resit.....whatever~

I said to him...I don't care about the hardisk...the only thing I want is the files inside....and he said "u don't care aaa????this is 320gb looooo...we do give warranty for the hardisk but not the files inside"
and i was like.......aaaaarrrrrgggghhhhh it's soooooooo funny omg omg i don't know what should i react to!

after a little chit chat with the guy (he insisted to give me new hardisk but must show the resit first eventhough i told him many times i don't know where the resit anymore) i walked around the shopping complex...without any destination....people look at me weirdly and just at that time i realized that i talked to myself! OMG! like crazy people!
i thought i only talk to my heart but i actually blurted it out and it totally looks like crazy person....
then i decided to go back home to avoid more crazy action....

too many loss!
i just hope for a miracle to happen....if not all...maybe some of the files can be recovered...maybe the hardisk can be open....i don't know

at the positive side, maybe this is one of my punishment to be too lalai for Arashi all this time....wake up call i guess.

but thank God, i will start my Japanese language class this saturday after waiting for almost 2 months....a great escape~~!!!!

SAYONARA ARASHI...I MAY NOT SEE THE OLD YOU ANYMORE....BUT I BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF ARASHIANS....THE SUPPLY WILL NEVER END....yoroshiku onegaishimasu ^^

as usual..its soooooo cold here...but,better than the last time i'd spent my night here...
there're so many people....international flight i guess (seems like they're all from China..) and i even heard they talk about Super Junior during having a dinner at McD...haha...if its about ARASHI,i'd surely join the chat...

my friends were already went to sleep somewhere...don't know...at the prayer room maybe...me????i just endure my sleepy eyes and save it for my 2 and a half hour flight....
anyway...there're just about 3 to 4 hours till my flight though....

so, happy Eid Mubarak all....
take care and have a sweet holiday
(eemmm...maybe its allowed to forget about ARASHI for a few days...ne~)

i always fail when it comes to make a decision because i've feelings that this is not true...that is not right and try to make a balance for all...but i realize that if we are thinking too much of other side effects,that won't do!
that's why i always depend on others to help me judge what is right...especially with my friends,i discuss a lot with those i believe even for certain private things although i know...there were uneasy feeling bout it...
i rarely talk with my family about my problems maybe because i don't use to it since i stayed at boarding school since secondary school..
i also like to search for some info from the net and sometimes, it can be a big help from me like talking with a stranger who can give a really good advice and opinion...for me,i can be unexpectedly open to someone i didn't know as long as our conversation did match with each other and he/she didn't know my name and details about me....just exchanging opinions and experience is ok i guess....

but....after all...if too many help from other people...it can make me more confuse in making a right choice...
so...in the end...the best way is to trust your own self, calm down, think carefully and make a choice!
its not about the result but the most important thing is about the process to become mature in decision making...so the best outcome is just believe in yourself and face any consequence that'll happen because that is what life are all about....we learn from mistakes and make sure to learn properly.....

who else you want to believe if not your own self???

just back from semester holiday last week but really have no rest at all.
the moment i arrive at my the university, plenty of work were waiting for me.
the big thing was a seminar which makes me less of sleep and rest on my own.
the other housemates were always complaining why am i never be at home on the day time because when they woke up,i'd already gone and only come back when they were all go to sleep then. don't have a time to really sit and talk together about how their holiday's story (even i know that dib and i must be very buzy downloading arashi's clip with the fast internet connection at home....huhu)
but, despite all the important stuff coming up soon, i still able to stole a few minutes just to watch my arashi...feeling like the life wasn't happening at all if i don't see them at least once a day.......
tomorrow is the day...the killing day for every final year students of food biotechnology in my university because we must assign the seminar related to our course which really takes a lot of time. so, hopefully everything will be as planned and the program will go smoothly.